Rumblings of a lonely girl

I Never Should HaveImage

I never should have smiled at you, I never should have said hi

I never should have flirted with you, I never should have enjoyed talking to you,

I never should have let myself fall, I never should have opened up to you

I never should have called you, I never should have picked your call

I never should have listened to you, I never should have let you in

I never should have hugged you, I never should have felt your warmth

I never should have kissed you, I never should have felt those emotions

I never should have

But if I never had smiled at you, I never would have known your smile so bright

If I never said hi, I never would have known such a sweet voice

If I had never flirted with you, I never would have felt like the only girl on earth

If I had never enjoyed talking to you, I never would have known how healing talking can be

If I had never let myself fall, I never would have known what it felt like to be caught

If I had never opened up to you, I never would have another person know me

If I had never called you, I never would have heard the cheesiest answers so sweet

If I had never picked your call, I never would have known joy at the sound of a voice

If I had never listened, I never would have known a person so sweet, bright and loving

If I had never hugged you, I never would have known safety in the arms of one so tender

If I had never felt your warmth, I never would have known a life so filling

And if I never kissed you, I never would have known pure bliss, from the touching of your lips to mine

I never should have, but I did. And now that it’s all gone, I do not regret a single thing. Instead I hold it dear and cherish it, learning from it and hoping I do better.

Because if you never try, you never know and alas, even though tears may roll down my face, even though I may be miserable when I miss you, and even though I may be in pain that you are no longer with me, I am happy I met you. I am happy that I did what I never should have.

 

 

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About KayCee

The About Me section is always the hardest part for me to do. I never seem to know how to fill it in but I will try. Here goes; I am a fun loving person who also happens to be somewhat anti-social. This is not deliberate, I just lack social skills. Anyway, I love to write about pretty much anything but I have dedicated this page to talking about my life with hyperhidrosis and how it affects the most mundane tasks. I love laughing. It can be annoying because people think I don't take them seriously when I laugh but I do. Laughter works as defense mechanism when I feel cornered or just cannot give an answer right away. Or when I really feel the need to laugh :) I am usually quiet til I know you. A bit of a cynic but I always try to see the good in people. I still believe in humanity at the same time wondering if we will make it. I am a walking contradiction apparently. And that is it about me. Happy reading! :)
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