Dying, I stretch out my hand as far as it can go
With every fiber of my being, I extend my hand to yours
I am so weak, but I try so hard to hold on to yours.
I breathe in so hard, and give it one last push. With all my strength, I push forward
And just when our fingers touch, it happens;
You become still; right before my eyes, you wither.
You look at me with confusion but there is nothing I can do about it
All I wanted was for you to save me, but even you, the purest of them all failed.
I am destruction. I am damaged and anything that comes in contact with me dies
It withers right before my eyes and is no more.
See, I destroy everything in my path; everything
I look back at my life and realize I failed. At everything. I see this huge mess I made.
It makes me feel like I don’t deserve to live and rightly so.
I deserve to die, to be gone from this world.
I failed. I destroyed.
What did I fail at, you ask?
Everything. Anything and everything
I destroy everything in my path. I am damaged, and everything I touch ends up damaged like me, maybe worse.
How did I end up this way? I don’t know. I just woke up one day and something inside of me was dead.
Since then, nothing has been the same. I feel different. Changed. Physically and emotionally.
I am damaged. In more ways than one. Damaged. I see no hope for me. The future is bleak.
Everything I set my eyes on withers.
Is there any hope for me? I don’t know. Is there?
Is there anyone out there daring enough to try to save me?
Anyone brave enough? Courageous enough?
With my dying plea I stretch out my hand to you
Help me…i whisper
You hold out your hand to me. Stretch as far as you can
As I stretch to you, the inevitable happens.
You start to wither right before my eyes
You dared save me but alas, I destroyed you too like others before you
This is my destiny…to destroy everything in my path
I do it so well
And as I lay down to die, I am at peace. I am fine.
For at last I will not destroy anything in my path. Life can go on and all will be well
As I lay down to rest, I am content.
Never have I felt this much peace.
I will not destroy again, I whisper to my dying self….