The Mistress of Destruction


Dying, I stretch out my hand as far as it can go

With every fiber of my being, I extend my hand to yours

I am so weak, but I try so hard to hold on to yours.

I breathe in so hard, and give it one last push. With all my strength, I push forward

And just when our fingers touch, it happens;

You become still; right before my eyes, you wither.

You look at me with confusion but there is nothing I can do about it

All I wanted was for you to save me, but even you, the purest of them all failed.

I am destruction. I am damaged and anything that comes in contact with me dies

It withers right before my eyes and is no more.

See, I destroy everything in my path; everything

I look back at my life and realize I failed. At everything. I see this huge mess I made.

It makes me feel like I don’t deserve to live and rightly so.

I deserve to die, to be gone from this world.

I failed. I destroyed.

What did I fail at, you ask?

Everything. Anything and everything

I destroy everything in my path. I am damaged, and everything I touch ends up damaged like me, maybe worse.

How did I end up this way? I don’t know. I just woke up one day and something inside of me was dead.

Since then, nothing has been the same. I feel different. Changed. Physically and emotionally.

I am damaged. In more ways than one. Damaged. I see no hope for me. The future is bleak.

Everything I set my eyes on withers.

Is there any hope for me? I don’t know. Is there?

Is there anyone out there daring enough to try to save me?

Anyone brave enough? Courageous enough?

With my dying plea I stretch out my hand to you

Help me…i whisper

You hold out your hand to me. Stretch as far as you can

As I stretch to you, the inevitable happens.

You start to wither right before my eyes

You dared save me but alas, I destroyed you too like others before you

This is my destiny…to destroy everything in my path

I do it so well

And as I lay down to die, I am at peace. I am fine.

For at last I will not destroy anything in my path. Life can go on and all will be well

As I lay down to rest, I am content.

Never have I felt this much peace.

I will not destroy again, I whisper to my dying self….


About KayCee

The About Me section is always the hardest part for me to do. I never seem to know how to fill it in but I will try. Here goes; I am a fun loving person who also happens to be somewhat anti-social. This is not deliberate, I just lack social skills. Anyway, I love to write about pretty much anything but I have dedicated this page to talking about my life with hyperhidrosis and how it affects the most mundane tasks. I love laughing. It can be annoying because people think I don't take them seriously when I laugh but I do. Laughter works as defense mechanism when I feel cornered or just cannot give an answer right away. Or when I really feel the need to laugh :) I am usually quiet til I know you. A bit of a cynic but I always try to see the good in people. I still believe in humanity at the same time wondering if we will make it. I am a walking contradiction apparently. And that is it about me. Happy reading! :)
This entry was posted in Uncategorized and tagged , , , . Bookmark the permalink.

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )


Connecting to %s