I think I need to take one of those personality type test thingies to figure out exactly what my personality is because I am a walking contradiction. For example, I have an irrational fear of heights. I get dizzy and nauseous when I am on or above five floors, I can barely look out the window.
But here is a fun fact about me; I hate and love flying. Yup. You read that right. I hate the whole take off, being up in the air feeling. My heart is always racing and looking out the window makes me want to scream. But then down the line I calm down and realize how beautiful it is.
Or it just might be the realization that it really is out of my hands, there is nothing I can do about it. I also do love the feeling of being entirely off the ground and not being responsible for anything. There is something about being thousands of miles above ground I guess.
Another thing I absolutely love/hate doing is roller coaster rides. I am sure my heart will give out on me as I get on these rides and I scream bloody murder during the whole thing. But that rush. Man that rush you get from those rides is the best feeling ever.
Of course if you are like me you don’t really feel the rush, mostly just fear and asking God to forgive you for every little and big thing you ever did as you prepare to be received into the kingdom.
But then the ride is over, you touch base with reality and voila, you live to see another day. When I’m lucky I experience the rush and agree to more rides.
Most days I’m not as lucky and curse my contradictory nature. And go on yet another ride. Also, I want to go sky diving and bungee jumping. But first I need to do a stress test to see if my heart is really healthy enough for this. It just might give out on me you know.
This brings me down to the whole I should take the personality test. I am usually that persona that thinks things through, over rationalizes things even. I over analyze every little thing it is so irritating.
Just ask all my ex boyfriends. Currently single. Hmmmm. There’s a thought. Anyway, I digress. Over analytical person that I am, I seem to have an impulsive nature as well. This is both good and bad. Not sure how this is good lol but I know it’s bad.
It’s good because I finally against all odds, and my low tolerance for pain went and got a tattoo on Saturday. This was right after my going away party hosted by my friends from church which was super nice of them. I love those guys. I will definitely miss them. Check out my art work y’all. I will blog about that next. My tat and party lol.
Go on and leave a comment. I would like to hear your take on my contradictory nature or what you think my personality type is.